The months leading up to becoming your father people kept telling me my life is about to change and I brushed this of thinking no, it’s going to be the same life but just with a child in it. I couldn’t have been more wrong but not in the way I thought they meant when they said “change”. The way it was interpreted in my head included all the chaos, diapers and crying, that was going to be the change. It wasn’t that at all in fact.
How do I put this into words, the day that you were born was one of the most amazing days of my life of course it never went the way we expected it, let me rephrase that, it went exactly how we would expect it to go for us but the second I heard that cry time just stopped and I knew from that moment that Love is not a strong enough word to describe how I feel for you. When you get to hold your child for the first time it’s like nothing else even matters. You are my son and I’m going to do everything I can to protect you and give you the life you deserve, that is all that went through my head.
Leaving to go to work offshore after only two weeks of meeting the little light in my heart just may be the hardest thing I could have ever done. I have felt this anxiety for the last few days and it’s not going to get any easier as the years go by but hopefully you will one day know that I am only doing this because it has to be done and one day I will get to where I want to be with my career as a chef that there will be more time spent with you. That is what I strive for. I still can’t believe that you are our child, a true testament to how much love your Mother an I have for one another. Greyson, you are my strength that I have needed. I still don’t think there are words that can describe it but I love you.