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Guess What? I’m Dead Chapter 1: Got Dead


The following is a story I have been thinking about off and on since junior high. It’s called Guess What? I’m dead. A story of second chances…well sort of. It follow Seth a down on his luck guy who finds himself in a lot of trouble. Like getting dead kind of trouble but he is given a second chance to change his ways and make things better by helping the one person who killed him find a better path in life. He has to get the job done before his body deteriorates, that’s the deal. coming back from the dead is hard enough but coming back from the dead as the living dead should be just fun. This is my first draft. It was originally a screenplay that was started several times but I figured why not just start writing it and see where it goes. While I’m at I wanted to share it with the world so you can get an idea of what I wanted to create. Let me know what you think so far and like I said this is the first draft, so feel free to be brutal but most of all please enjoy, I wanted to make it a fun process.


The night seems oddly calm considering the events that are about to unfurl. The air is cool and crisp, not a draft of wind, skys are clear. You can smell the downtown hotdogs, pizza and stale booze all around. What more could you want for a night on the town. Why am I running? Oh right there are two ugly fellows chasing me down. Breathing heavily, I dodge into one back ally up some stairs and out into another street. If I get out of this more cardio is in the books for sure. They are still behind me, I can’t see them when glancing back for the split second that is allowed without crashing face first into the cigarette butt ridden ground but I can still feel there prescience. One of the guys of short balding man sort of Joe Pesci esque, I could probably take him but the the other guy is much taller and scarier. Think Lurch meets Dolphin Lundgren. If that one catches me I’m done for. Running now past the street lights into a park filled with trees and park benches. No one is around; damn. What was I expecting in the middle of the night on a Thursday, the teddy bears picnic. There’s a clearing ahead maybe I can find a place to hide on the other side. Oh look, a tree let’s see if hiding behind there will help, it’s worked in so many other things I’ve seen, Right? Looking around I don’t see them. Then looking on the left and bang. Fist to the face so hard it may have proven Stephen Hawking’s theory and all goes dark. I can now hear muffeled voices are arguing back and forth but not much else, it could just as well be a dream.

“What do with him now boss?” One voice asks.

”Just wait for him to come to, we need to have a little discussion about respect before we go any further” Replied another voice.

”Do we get to off him tonight?” Asked a third voice.

”It may come to that but you get to have a little fun first.” The second voice says again.

“I think he’s coming to.” Says the first voice.

I could hear them all but could not see a thing everything was sill black when I opened my eyes and then all of a sudden there’s this blinding light. It takes a few moments to adjust. Looks as though there was a pillow case over the old throbbing noggin. I could taste the metallic blood that feels like it’s running down from my once beautiful nose and the light is coming from a really strong flashlight held by the not so attractive Pesci. Looking around I see the oceans and a brook that’s is flowing into it. We are under a little bridge. It doesn’t look like one that gets used often so I’m guessing we are away from civilization, yippie. I’m on my knees and my hands are bound by very soft rope, how thoughtful. Probably all they had. There are three guys standing around now the two uglies that we’re chasing me and a third man. He’s a little more upset looking, like he needs to shit but can’t, normal height with dirty blonde hair kind of attractive in a average sort of way. Not what you would expect for someone in his profession. Looks a little like Cary Elws, the princess bride guy. They call him Mr. Rich but his name is actually David Findman or something common like that. He is wearing a very odd but intriguing necklace, it doesn’t seem to suit his appearance. Looks like something you would see in one of those voodoo charms it was an octagon shape with a whole bunch of what looks like pitchforks in every direction and a suit. They were all suited up, not the cheap kind either.

“Why am I out of bed away from my family at this unruly hour of the night Mr. Lancaster is it?” The new guy asked.

That’s me, I’m Mr. Lancaster, but you can call me Seth.

”Well Mr. Rich, whatever it is I’m sure it can wait until the morning.” I replied.

and smack! I get a backhand from the little bald ones flashlight. At least it wasn’t Lurch Lundgren again.

”I don’t have time for this shit sir. My boys here say you have taken a large sum of money from me, Where is it?” He says with a very menacing tone.

”Well you’d have to ask Sally, or was is Jessie?” I come back, looking to the side like an asshole.

This is when the big fella comes over, bends down, grabs my thumb and just breaks it like he’s braking bread at the last supper or some thing.

“Holy Shit!!!” I yell with some other added profanity I shall not repeat.

”Now you better cough up the two hundred grand you took from me, or my friends here are going to have some more fun with you.” Mr. Rich adds calmly.

”Oh yes wait now, while I get my accountant up here with my cheques and ledgers.” I come back with out of breath from pain.

”Well boys, I’m done here tonight. Sorry your fun has to end. I’m tired and I would rather get up early to recoup my money then let this little insufferable worm breath this life for another second.” He says waving his hand.

The Lurch Guy then pulls out his wire from his pocket and walks over too me.

“Wait, I shout! Give me one week I can get your money!”

Mr. Rich leans in close to my face and says.

“That’s ok I can do it three days.”

Lurch wraps the chord around my neck and pulls so tight I feel the blood vessels popping in my eyes, I manage to get my hands loose to try and grip at the wire but my strength is wearing out but with the last bit of energy I pull the necklace off of Mr. Rich and as I’m falling to the ground before everything thing goes black for the last time I herd him say.

”Put the body somewhere public, so he can set an example for others”

what now?


I Didn’t Know I Would Want it so Bad

When I started out cooking, I had no intent to try and make a full career out of it. In fact I don’t think my family even trusted me in a kitchen. Acting and Film, that was my passion. Even after years in a couple family reasaurants, it was just a job although I did enjoy the dance of being a line cook, it never occurred to me that there could be more.

This is until I decided to do a Marine cooking program at the local college. The chefs there opened my eyes to what food really means, it sounds corny I know but it’s art meets science. They gave me enough to go off and start growing as a cook. Amazing Chefs both in there own right, they were able to pack in so much knowledge in such a short period of time. Then after that program, the boats happened.

Now getting a good crew full of people that loved different food was a dream. I would be able to practice my craft and get better at it but if got on a crew who were picky, it was misery. Now after a few years trying to convince myself that I didn’t get sea sick (that’s a lie I still get sea sick all the friggin time), making a lot of dishes for quite a few sailors and trying not to sound like an arsehole about food (I fail here as well), I couldn’t help but thinking there’s got to be more to this cooking thing.

People would keep asking me for recipes all the time and one day it clicked! I’ll shoot some recipes and post them to YouTube for people to try. Right now it feels like the worst decision I had ever made but while I am doing it, combining to of my passions together film and food, words can’t describe and that’s the problem. It’s a slow market for food videos on YouTube. Even some of the biggest food people don’t get the views and following as a lot of other YouTubers especially when you are doing it all yourself and the content is not as good as envisioned. Anyway, this started to become a little issue when people weren’t watching. I’d post a video, few would watch, I’d get distressed and not make one for a while. It’s only latley that I have changed the format a little tried to be more consistent but YouTube is rough. I’ll leave the link for my channel and move on.


Here’s my latest video, where I tried something a little different.

The next issue with the offshore is that it’s not constant, so we get laid off from time to time, which really hurts. The last  time I was laid off I went off the rails altogether and tried to make a cookbook work. It was digital and it did not save the day like I had imagined it would. Where I do have the cooking skills there’s a little lacking in the social skills department. There are times when full blown panic attacks happen right before a phone call, I kid you not. I’ll leave a link at the bottom if you want to grab a copy of the book for $2.50 CAD. I couldn’t figure out how to get the darn thing up on iBooks and it was done in the wrong format for selling on other platforms. So I ended up selling it trough another site called Pay-hip. I figured the book would save the day all the while helping out the little guy, life would turn around and I’d be working on my own cooking show ha. That’s not how life works and I know it but a part of me is still thinking hey it happens maybe I could be one of those lucky few but it’s hard when you mess up the formula but I had no idea I would want this so bad!

I broke formula and that’s why I need your help sharing this story. It should go cook in kitchens or even buss and dishwash first, work your way up the ladder, making connections along the way head to a fine dining establishment and repeat the process or go to culinary school. Open your own restaurant and market yourself right. Make a whole bunch of public appearances, write a cookbook then start a show if you are into that. I started out in the kitchens went to a cooking program and then offshore. Now I’m trying to do the Cookbook thing without connections and peers. It’s tough but hopefully this writing will help find the right group of people for me. I want to make my cooking mean something not only to my family but hopefully to others that struggle as well. Don’t get me wrong cooking offshore is fun, it’s just a little harder to get the connections to do more with cooking being the only cook on shift most of the time. All the best and leave a comment of something you struggle with or how you have overcome struggles.

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– Subscribe to my cooking channel, then watch, like, share and even comment on them.

– Do the same on my Facebook. Like it and share the heck out of he content.

– You could also follow me on Instagram and Twitter. All these links are below.

– Grab a copy of my digital book. I created it to raise the funds to make a super awesome interactive cookbook which you will also get a digital copy of once it is completed. So show some love and click on the link, it’s only $2.50 and it will help big time. Safe and secure through PayPal.


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Let’s Talk

I have been talking about mental health here lately and I think this is a good day to talk some more about it. We all struggle with it from time to time. Some on greater scale than others, it’s not something we find easy to talk about so if you do find it hard try writing about it. The most important thing is that you get it out into the open. It doesn’t have to be on the internet, you could write it out and pass it to a friend or family member and start the conversation from there. I go day to day beating myself up because I can never seem to make things turn out the way I have envisioned them I’m my head. It’s awful, take for example my cookbook. I thought sure as all get out that it was the game changer. A year later and I don’t sleep because it’s still not the game changer but just typing that then helped a little. I don’t talk about it as much as I should because of the fear of annoying people or sounding desperate but at the same time I don’t know how to go about doing anything once the book was done. You see I’m the type of person who walks into a room and instantly feels sick, that’s why people don’t see me around much. If I’m at a party I’m the one who can’t  sit still. This is just some of the fun things my brain has to deal with. So when it comes to selling myself, I stink. Oh and look out when something bad happens, I will shut down altogether. It takes me months to sort out a problem sometimes a year and in that time I may disappear from social media and not talk to anyone. That’s the one that holds me back the most but enough talking about me. My point is it affects people differently, it’s a challenge but don’t think of it as weakness. If you need to talk to someone, just send me a message. My Facebook page would be best. click the link below.

Have a great day,


Bullying the Aftermath

Ok… Deep Breath and here we go. I want to share with you something that I know from experience and that is sometimes when you have been bullied frequently as a kid it can leave a lasting impression on you right into adult hood.

These are things that I have only shared with my wife but I think it’s time to let it out and maybe it will help others that are struggling. This will also give you some insight into what I want to dedicate my life as a chef to give it some meaning.

I don’t really know why or when exactly it all started, it’s been years of pushing it away but I didn’t know how to truly deal with it at the time, so I would just escape into my own dream world all the time and pretend I was in a movie. That’s where the desire to become an actor came from. Most of the stuff was pretty standard. Chased with objects mostly rocks, tricked into drinking urine and being chased with porno magazines which is quite messed up for a prepubescent kid. These things sucked yes, there was one point where it became the daily harassment show but nothing sticks more than a name which lasted what felt like an eternity and that name was “pillow puff”I will not go into the details of where it came form but it was bad trust me. I was the kid that didn’t want to inconvenience people so I just kept it to myself which I would like to advise against doing, things would have been so much better if I had just said something.

Now for the long term affects of being bullied and not dealing with it right away. I suck at confritation and my social skills still set me back to this day. I get sick when I’m in small groups and I panic, I’ll also look for every way out of social engagements. I’ve missed so many opportunities because of it. I also have this bad habit of shutting down and not letting people in which is the worst cause I even do it to my wife but luckily she calls me out on it. All things that I’m going to work on because they are getting in the way of me having a full happy life.

I hope that with this cookbook I can set a few things right and give myself some of that time back that was wasted being scared, with your help of course. Hopefully it will also be the foundation to my program where I help others who have been bullied or who just feel like they never fit in to find something to be passionate about like cooking and film has done for me. When I’m cooking or editing video everything just melts away. It’s funny I mentioned before that small groups make me sick but if you put me in front of a huge crowd or a camera I’m right at home, it’s weird but there’s this high you get that can be measured.

Remember if you need someone to talk to, it doesn’t have to be about cooking and you’re afraid to talk to someone you know, you can send me a message on my cooking page www.facebook.com/bringhometheflavour and I will get to you as soon as I can.

Please share this message, hopefully my little story will help someone speak up before it’s too late and if you see someone being bullied don’t ignore it. I’m guilty of that myself over the years and I feel terrible about it every day.

Below is the link to my cookbook, it’s only $2.50 Canadian and it will help me achieve what I have been talking about.




Thank you,


What You See Vs. What I See

I’m talking about the cookbook again of course, It’s all I think about. Starting to think it’s a curse. Now that you’re done rolling your eyes let’s get on with it.

What you do you see when you look at my book? Probably that it’s just a ebook or maybe it’s a cash grab? A hair brained get rich scheme, I can tell you right now it’s not that one seeing as it has been over a year now. Maybe you think it’s a little hobby or side project? All these would be valid, you don’t know me so how would you expect anything different. The ebook is not even up on Amazon or Ibooks, right? There is a reason for that and I will get to it but for now hear me out.


Now here’s what I see. This ebook “The Beta Cookbook” is the foundation to my future as well as the future of my family. It is a opportunity to turn things around and give meaning to my life as a chef. I see this book having the potential to create jobs and change lives. Well not the book itself but I will do what I can to change lives. This book was created with the intention of getting funding for a full length interactive cookbook, only I wanted people to have something in the meantime as opposed to just asking for money for nothing. Everyone will get a digital copy of the final project plus other fun stuff along the way. It was also written to finally give me the chance to create something from nothing, there is no greater high. Actually the greatest high for me it being in front of an audience, I’ve been chasing that one for years with the YouTube channel. Choosing  Payhip to sell my book through over the big wigs was about helping out the smaller companies, we’re all trying to make it in this saturated digital world why not help one another out.

I hope that clears the air for some of you and I hope that you will find the time to help encourage others to purchase my ebook.I promise you it won’t go unnoticed and I will always find a way to give back throughout the years, big or small. Thank you for your time, maybe this will spread to the far reaches of the internet and my dreams will come true.

The Beta Cookbook is available through Payhip and it accepts PayPal for $5, so CLICK HERE and get a copy now please.

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Last Saturday at Work, Last Pea Soup

Well another 12 hour shift done and only 3 full ones to go, I’m really looking forward to getting home to see my wife and the little one. Had to leave for work too soon after he was born but now I get to have a full month with him. It will be also a full month of working on the cookbook and YouTube cooking channel as well. Can’t wait to get some updates done and improve on the video making. I can’t give up on myself, it’s the one thing that always happens and it sets me back. Gotta kick it into high gear and work towards giving my family the best life possible with the skills I have. Tired of moving backwards, it’s time to launch forward. Anyway lets get to the recipe.

Click here to get the ebook that is helping me fund the actual book. It’s only $5 and has 75+ recipes, plus you will receive a digital copy of the final books once it is complete as well. It’s sold on Payhip and it’s safe and secure through PayPal.

Pea Soup is a Saturday tradition on the boats here in Newfoundland. Some people would get confused on what day it is if the soup is not on when it’s supposed to be. The Dumplings are also called “dough B’y’s” if you’re ever in Newfoundland and you see it around. If you don’t have access to salt beef you can substitute with a ham bone. I hope you enjoy making this and let me know how it works out for you in the comments below. Please subscribe to my channel so I can keep making even better videos. Also like and share this video if you enjoy it.


Pea Soup With Dumplings (Dough B’y’s)

1 lb salt beef (soaked overnight)
250g split peas
1/2 a medium turnip
1/2 a large onion
1 medium carrot
3 or 4 ribs of celery
4 L of Water
1 bay leaf (optional)

1. Dice up your beef and trim all the fat and bones off. Toss it in a medium soup pot. Place in your bay leaf if you choose.

2. Add your split peas and pour 4L of water over it. Then lay it on the stove uncovered at high heat to bring to a boil. Stir occasionally so the peas don’t stick.

3. In the meantime dice up all your veggies. after about 1 1/2- 2 hours toss in the diced vegetables and bring to a boil again.You may need to add more water so it doesn’t stick and burn. let it cook for another 40 minutes or so.

Now for your Dumplings:

1 3/4 cups flour
1 tbsp baking powder
3 tbsp butter or margarine
1/2 tsp salt
1/4 tsp pepper
3/4 cups milk


1. Whisk together in a bowl the flour, baking powder, salt and pepper.

2. Add the butter and whisk again until the mixture resembles course crumbs.

3. Next pour in the milk and switch to a rubber spatula to mix it all together and a soft dough forms.

4. Pinch off small chunks of the dough and drop them into the boiling pea soup. Cover the pot and remove it from the heat and let the dumplings cook for 20 minutes.

5. Remove the cooked dumplings and add pepper to taste then serve.

Thank you,



Quesadilla Making and a Little Love

The past couple of days have been good cookbook wise, people are starting to show some love and that is great. Maybe this time I won’t give up on myself, gonna make a conscience effort to keep the momentum going. Motivation yeah!

The Beta Cookbook Get a copy here

Today was a day on the water nothing exciting, work as usual on a boat. I made a whole heap of chilli with some fresh rolls. Had some hot dogs with wedge fries and salads to keep it a little simple. Oh I also made Chicken Quesadillas which is what I wanted to share today. There are several different varieties that I will add to the cookbook like my greek style or pulled pork quesadilla but today I’ll just share my standard simple chicken quesadillas.


  • Boneless Chicken Breasts (I go with a small breast per quesadilla roughly) 3/4 cup diced
  • Flour Tortilla Shells (Check out my video on how to make them fresh Here)
  • Grated Cheese (I like a lot personally but you can judge accordingly, that’s why I have pictures for this one)
  • Chilli Powder ( About 1 1/2 tsp for 4 breasts worth of diced chicken)
  • Garlic Powder or fresh minced (about 1/2 tsp for the same amount or 2 cloves minced)
  • Cumin (Just a dash will do if you have it)
  • 1/4 cup salsa (assuming 4 breasts, this would have been easier if I had just said for 4 at the beginning, too late to turn back now)
  • Salt and Pepper to taste.



1. Cook off your chicken breasts in an oven set to 350 degrees for about 25-30 minutes. I seasoned my breasts with a little chilli powder, garlic, salt and pepper.


2. Once the chicken is cooked, let it cool a little then dice it up into cubes like this.


3. Pour on your salsa.


and add those spices, this looks like a lot because I was making about 30 quesadillas.


4. Mix all that together, it will look a little like this.


5. Lay the tortilla out on a cutting board or any clean surface and sprinkle half with cheese like so.


6. Then add the 3/4 cup of diced chicken on top of the cheese.


7. Of course you gotta sprinkle more cheese on top, it helps the quesadilla stick together and come on, it’s cheese!

8. Fold the tortilla in half like so.


8. Lay your Quesadilla in a pan set to medium heat and fry on both sides until browned on one side.


like this! thats where you flip.



9. Once the cheese has all melted and it get’s this lovely colour above you are ready to chop and serve up with you’re favourite dip like sour cream or guacamole or both.


Enjoy and don’t forget to subscribe to my channel for lots of great recipes published weekly. www.youtube.com/adamdurford

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Take Care,