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Bullying the Aftermath

Ok… Deep Breath and here we go. I want to share with you something that I know from experience and that is sometimes when you have been bullied frequently as a kid it can leave a lasting impression on you right into adult hood.

These are things that I have only shared with my wife but I think it’s time to let it out and maybe it will help others that are struggling. This will also give you some insight into what I want to dedicate my life as a chef to give it some meaning.

I don’t really know why or when exactly it all started, it’s been years of pushing it away but I didn’t know how to truly deal with it at the time, so I would just escape into my own dream world all the time and pretend I was in a movie. That’s where the desire to become an actor came from. Most of the stuff was pretty standard. Chased with objects mostly rocks, tricked into drinking urine and being chased with porno magazines which is quite messed up for a prepubescent kid. These things sucked yes, there was one point where it became the daily harassment show but nothing sticks more than a name which lasted what felt like an eternity and that name was “pillow puff”I will not go into the details of where it came form but it was bad trust me. I was the kid that didn’t want to inconvenience people so I just kept it to myself which I would like to advise against doing, things would have been so much better if I had just said something.

Now for the long term affects of being bullied and not dealing with it right away. I suck at confritation and my social skills still set me back to this day. I get sick when I’m in small groups and I panic, I’ll also look for every way out of social engagements. I’ve missed so many opportunities because of it. I also have this bad habit of shutting down and not letting people in which is the worst cause I even do it to my wife but luckily she calls me out on it. All things that I’m going to work on because they are getting in the way of me having a full happy life.

I hope that with this cookbook I can set a few things right and give myself some of that time back that was wasted being scared, with your help of course. Hopefully it will also be the foundation to my program where I help others who have been bullied or who just feel like they never fit in to find something to be passionate about like cooking and film has done for me. When I’m cooking or editing video everything just melts away. It’s funny I mentioned before that small groups make me sick but if you put me in front of a huge crowd or a camera I’m right at home, it’s weird but there’s this high you get that can be measured.

Remember if you need someone to talk to, it doesn’t have to be about cooking and you’re afraid to talk to someone you know, you can send me a message on my cooking page www.facebook.com/bringhometheflavour and I will get to you as soon as I can.

Please share this message, hopefully my little story will help someone speak up before it’s too late and if you see someone being bullied don’t ignore it. I’m guilty of that myself over the years and I feel terrible about it every day.

Below is the link to my cookbook, it’s only $2.50 Canadian and it will help me achieve what I have been talking about.




Thank you,



What You See Vs. What I See

I’m talking about the cookbook again of course, It’s all I think about. Starting to think it’s a curse. Now that you’re done rolling your eyes let’s get on with it.

What you do you see when you look at my book? Probably that it’s just a ebook or maybe it’s a cash grab? A hair brained get rich scheme, I can tell you right now it’s not that one seeing as it has been over a year now. Maybe you think it’s a little hobby or side project? All these would be valid, you don’t know me so how would you expect anything different. The ebook is not even up on Amazon or Ibooks, right? There is a reason for that and I will get to it but for now hear me out.


Now here’s what I see. This ebook “The Beta Cookbook” is the foundation to my future as well as the future of my family. It is a opportunity to turn things around and give meaning to my life as a chef. I see this book having the potential to create jobs and change lives. Well not the book itself but I will do what I can to change lives. This book was created with the intention of getting funding for a full length interactive cookbook, only I wanted people to have something in the meantime as opposed to just asking for money for nothing. Everyone will get a digital copy of the final project plus other fun stuff along the way. It was also written to finally give me the chance to create something from nothing, there is no greater high. Actually the greatest high for me it being in front of an audience, I’ve been chasing that one for years with the YouTube channel. Choosing  Payhip to sell my book through over the big wigs was about helping out the smaller companies, we’re all trying to make it in this saturated digital world why not help one another out.

I hope that clears the air for some of you and I hope that you will find the time to help encourage others to purchase my ebook.I promise you it won’t go unnoticed and I will always find a way to give back throughout the years, big or small. Thank you for your time, maybe this will spread to the far reaches of the internet and my dreams will come true.

The Beta Cookbook is available through Payhip and it accepts PayPal for $5, so CLICK HERE and get a copy now please.

You can also check out all my social networking for more recipes and videos by clicking on the links below.

Youtube: www.youtube.com/adamdurnford

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Twitter: twitter.com/Adamdurnford

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Last Saturday at Work, Last Pea Soup

Well another 12 hour shift done and only 3 full ones to go, I’m really looking forward to getting home to see my wife and the little one. Had to leave for work too soon after he was born but now I get to have a full month with him. It will be also a full month of working on the cookbook and YouTube cooking channel as well. Can’t wait to get some updates done and improve on the video making. I can’t give up on myself, it’s the one thing that always happens and it sets me back. Gotta kick it into high gear and work towards giving my family the best life possible with the skills I have. Tired of moving backwards, it’s time to launch forward. Anyway lets get to the recipe.

Click here to get the ebook that is helping me fund the actual book. It’s only $5 and has 75+ recipes, plus you will receive a digital copy of the final books once it is complete as well. It’s sold on Payhip and it’s safe and secure through PayPal.

Pea Soup is a Saturday tradition on the boats here in Newfoundland. Some people would get confused on what day it is if the soup is not on when it’s supposed to be. The Dumplings are also called “dough B’y’s” if you’re ever in Newfoundland and you see it around. If you don’t have access to salt beef you can substitute with a ham bone. I hope you enjoy making this and let me know how it works out for you in the comments below. Please subscribe to my channel so I can keep making even better videos. Also like and share this video if you enjoy it.


Pea Soup With Dumplings (Dough B’y’s)

1 lb salt beef (soaked overnight)
250g split peas
1/2 a medium turnip
1/2 a large onion
1 medium carrot
3 or 4 ribs of celery
4 L of Water
1 bay leaf (optional)

1. Dice up your beef and trim all the fat and bones off. Toss it in a medium soup pot. Place in your bay leaf if you choose.

2. Add your split peas and pour 4L of water over it. Then lay it on the stove uncovered at high heat to bring to a boil. Stir occasionally so the peas don’t stick.

3. In the meantime dice up all your veggies. after about 1 1/2- 2 hours toss in the diced vegetables and bring to a boil again.You may need to add more water so it doesn’t stick and burn. let it cook for another 40 minutes or so.

Now for your Dumplings:

1 3/4 cups flour
1 tbsp baking powder
3 tbsp butter or margarine
1/2 tsp salt
1/4 tsp pepper
3/4 cups milk


1. Whisk together in a bowl the flour, baking powder, salt and pepper.

2. Add the butter and whisk again until the mixture resembles course crumbs.

3. Next pour in the milk and switch to a rubber spatula to mix it all together and a soft dough forms.

4. Pinch off small chunks of the dough and drop them into the boiling pea soup. Cover the pot and remove it from the heat and let the dumplings cook for 20 minutes.

5. Remove the cooked dumplings and add pepper to taste then serve.

Thank you,



One Book to Change the Game

All I have to do is come up with the magic words that will get thousands of people taking a chance on me and purchasing this little ebook cookbook. Then I can reshoot and add to it making an even better cookbook and turn that one into a bestseller. After that comes the cooking show and the learning new techniques from some of the great chefs of the world. Don’t forget the line of super awesome cooking gear that I can promote and going back to school for some sort of degree, maybe in marketing? Here come the words in 3..2..1. Nope I don’t have them, all I can do is put myself out there. If only I were more social, maybe there would be a chance. Why can’t I stop thinking about it? Just one shot, that’s all I need. Why did I have to love cooking and filming so damn much. Should of never started that Youtube Channel, it made me want to do more with cooking. I just want my cooking to mean something. Anyway all I can do is hope for a miracle and keep working hard the right people will come along, some already have and I am enterally grateful. Then I will make miracles happen for others.

Click Here to get a copy through PayPal I’m selling it though Payhip because I did my research and they seemed fair for the independent selling.

My YouTube Channel is www.youtube.com/adamdurnford


Would I be deluded  in thinking that maybe one day one thing I do will change my story for the better? It’s one of the few things that keeps me going so I hope not.

my social game hasn’t been strong. One on one is fine, small groups give me some horrible anxiety and causes exhaustion. This is probably the one thing that has held me back over the years because most people don’t really get that. You know what is the weirdest part? If you put me in front of a huge audience or in front of a camera, that’s what I live for. It’s one of those feelings that can be substituted for anything else and that’s why I keep trying to get somewhere with cooking channel, hoping that one day someone or some people may see something there, I truly don’t know what other route to take. Suggestions are welcome.

There needs to be some sense of purpose for my cooking, so I’m hoping to one day set up programs in cooking and the arts to help people who have been bullied or just feel left out in life. I know there are lots of people who don’t feel like they fit in anywhere and I want to do my best to help them. Cooking has been a great therapy for me over the years, I’m just always looking for a way to share that with others.

So basically, I want to take my cooking as far as it can go. Create an opportunity to better take care of my family. They are a huge motivator because I haven’t been able to take care of them like the deseve but I hope to change that. I want to help others never feel left out or bullied. Meet some awesome people along the was and always learn.

Pelase share my story with others, I’d like to know of anyone who struggles to do whatever it is they want to do to change their story. Maybe we can work together to get each other where they need to be. Feel free to leave a comment below.

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Feel free to grab a digital copy of my cookbook “The Beta Cookbook” and don’t forget you will receive a final digital copy of the book when it’s done. It’s $5 though PayPal. The money goes back into making the most awesome interactive cookbook ever.


Thanks for reading,




28 Days of Recipes

“28 Days if Recipes” This is the official title of what “The Beta Cookbook” will become once it is published. It will be a menu plan for 28 days with all the recipes included. That’s 28 breakfast recipes, 28 Main Dishes, 28 desserts etc. I’m going with the 28 Days because that is what we typically work offshore cooking but I will take that a step further and give you lots of tips and tricks if you run out of certain items which happens from time to time being at sea and all. It’s going to be so much fun, I’m super excited. I was having a hard time coming up with the funds for the book so I created “The Beta Cookbook” as a way to raise money for the creation and publishing of the actual cookbook which is now going to be called “28 Days of Recipes”.

So please grab your copy of “The Beta Cookbook” now for $5 so you can help me turn this dream into a reality.

Click here to get the copy

It’s safe and secure through paypal and you will get the final digital copy of 28 Days of Recipes as soon as it’s done along with lot’s of other cool stuff. Take a chance on this nobody. I can’t wait to cook for you all.

Here are a couple shots from “The Beta Cookbook”.

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Another Shot Because I don’t Know When to Quit

So I have been trying to make a cookbook and in order to come up with the funds I decided to write a collection of recipes called “The Beta Cookbook” and sell that for $5 as a digital download through payhip. So far I haven’t been all that successful, moved a few copies at the beginning but nothing much after that. Hopefully with this blog post and help from the fine people of the internet hopefully we can get the ball rolling here. I’m doing it this way because I need the funds for a food photographer and obviously funds to have it published but I don’t want to ask for a hand out so I created the digital book.


What’s the incentive for you? Well how about a finished digital copy of the final book and a whole bunch of chances to win some great cooking gear if we can get enough to get this off the ground. The digital download has 75+ recipes with links to videos for extra help. There’s breakfast recipes, main dishes, sweets and more.

Click here to get your copy

I’m using Payhip because transactions are safe and secure through Paypal but if you don’t have Paypal. I have set up a campaign for a cooking show and you can get a copy of my book there using credit card. I’m focusing on the show as well but my main priority will be the book. I have this habit of trying to change my life all at once but I gotta keep reminding myself one step at a time. So please help me get this off the ground get your copy now, it’s only $5 and it will make a huge difference and please share as well. I’m doing this on my own and kind of making it up as I go. I’ve reached out to several people for guidance with no response. Thank you for your support I can’t even begin to describe how much it means to me.

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Oh and for those of you that paid $15 in the beginning, you will all get a final physical copy of the book once it is published.

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