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Bullying the Aftermath

Ok… Deep Breath and here we go. I want to share with you something that I know from experience and that is sometimes when you have been bullied frequently as a kid it can leave a lasting impression on you right into adult hood.

These are things that I have only shared with my wife but I think it’s time to let it out and maybe it will help others that are struggling. This will also give you some insight into what I want to dedicate my life as a chef to give it some meaning.

I don’t really know why or when exactly it all started, it’s been years of pushing it away but I didn’t know how to truly deal with it at the time, so I would just escape into my own dream world all the time and pretend I was in a movie. That’s where the desire to become an actor came from. Most of the stuff was pretty standard. Chased with objects mostly rocks, tricked into drinking urine and being chased with porno magazines which is quite messed up for a prepubescent kid. These things sucked yes, there was one point where it became the daily harassment show but nothing sticks more than a name which lasted what felt like an eternity and that name was “pillow puff”I will not go into the details of where it came form but it was bad trust me. I was the kid that didn’t want to inconvenience people so I just kept it to myself which I would like to advise against doing, things would have been so much better if I had just said something.

Now for the long term affects of being bullied and not dealing with it right away. I suck at confritation and my social skills still set me back to this day. I get sick when I’m in small groups and I panic, I’ll also look for every way out of social engagements. I’ve missed so many opportunities because of it. I also have this bad habit of shutting down and not letting people in which is the worst cause I even do it to my wife but luckily she calls me out on it. All things that I’m going to work on because they are getting in the way of me having a full happy life.

I hope that with this cookbook I can set a few things right and give myself some of that time back that was wasted being scared, with your help of course. Hopefully it will also be the foundation to my program where I help others who have been bullied or who just feel like they never fit in to find something to be passionate about like cooking and film has done for me. When I’m cooking or editing video everything just melts away. It’s funny I mentioned before that small groups make me sick but if you put me in front of a huge crowd or a camera I’m right at home, it’s weird but there’s this high you get that can be measured.

Remember if you need someone to talk to, it doesn’t have to be about cooking and you’re afraid to talk to someone you know, you can send me a message on my cooking page www.facebook.com/bringhometheflavour and I will get to you as soon as I can.

Please share this message, hopefully my little story will help someone speak up before it’s too late and if you see someone being bullied don’t ignore it. I’m guilty of that myself over the years and I feel terrible about it every day.

Below is the link to my cookbook, it’s only $2.50 Canadian and it will help me achieve what I have been talking about.

http://payhip.com/b/GSJx

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Thank you,

Adam

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What You See Vs. What I See

I’m talking about the cookbook again of course, It’s all I think about. Starting to think it’s a curse. Now that you’re done rolling your eyes let’s get on with it.

What you do you see when you look at my book? Probably that it’s just a ebook or maybe it’s a cash grab? A hair brained get rich scheme, I can tell you right now it’s not that one seeing as it has been over a year now. Maybe you think it’s a little hobby or side project? All these would be valid, you don’t know me so how would you expect anything different. The ebook is not even up on Amazon or Ibooks, right? There is a reason for that and I will get to it but for now hear me out.

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Now here’s what I see. This ebook “The Beta Cookbook” is the foundation to my future as well as the future of my family. It is a opportunity to turn things around and give meaning to my life as a chef. I see this book having the potential to create jobs and change lives. Well not the book itself but I will do what I can to change lives. This book was created with the intention of getting funding for a full length interactive cookbook, only I wanted people to have something in the meantime as opposed to just asking for money for nothing. Everyone will get a digital copy of the final project plus other fun stuff along the way. It was also written to finally give me the chance to create something from nothing, there is no greater high. Actually the greatest high for me it being in front of an audience, I’ve been chasing that one for years with the YouTube channel. Choosing  Payhip to sell my book through over the big wigs was about helping out the smaller companies, we’re all trying to make it in this saturated digital world why not help one another out.

I hope that clears the air for some of you and I hope that you will find the time to help encourage others to purchase my ebook.I promise you it won’t go unnoticed and I will always find a way to give back throughout the years, big or small. Thank you for your time, maybe this will spread to the far reaches of the internet and my dreams will come true.

The Beta Cookbook is available through Payhip and it accepts PayPal for $5, so CLICK HERE and get a copy now please.

You can also check out all my social networking for more recipes and videos by clicking on the links below.

Youtube: www.youtube.com/adamdurnford

Facebook: www.facebook.com/bringhometheflavour

Twitter: twitter.com/Adamdurnford

Instagram: www.instagram.com/adurnford

 

Last Saturday at Work, Last Pea Soup

Well another 12 hour shift done and only 3 full ones to go, I’m really looking forward to getting home to see my wife and the little one. Had to leave for work too soon after he was born but now I get to have a full month with him. It will be also a full month of working on the cookbook and YouTube cooking channel as well. Can’t wait to get some updates done and improve on the video making. I can’t give up on myself, it’s the one thing that always happens and it sets me back. Gotta kick it into high gear and work towards giving my family the best life possible with the skills I have. Tired of moving backwards, it’s time to launch forward. Anyway lets get to the recipe.

Click here to get the ebook that is helping me fund the actual book. It’s only $5 and has 75+ recipes, plus you will receive a digital copy of the final books once it is complete as well. It’s sold on Payhip and it’s safe and secure through PayPal.

Pea Soup is a Saturday tradition on the boats here in Newfoundland. Some people would get confused on what day it is if the soup is not on when it’s supposed to be. The Dumplings are also called “dough B’y’s” if you’re ever in Newfoundland and you see it around. If you don’t have access to salt beef you can substitute with a ham bone. I hope you enjoy making this and let me know how it works out for you in the comments below. Please subscribe to my channel so I can keep making even better videos. Also like and share this video if you enjoy it.

 

Pea Soup With Dumplings (Dough B’y’s)

1 lb salt beef (soaked overnight)
250g split peas
1/2 a medium turnip
1/2 a large onion
1 medium carrot
3 or 4 ribs of celery
4 L of Water
1 bay leaf (optional)

1. Dice up your beef and trim all the fat and bones off. Toss it in a medium soup pot. Place in your bay leaf if you choose.

2. Add your split peas and pour 4L of water over it. Then lay it on the stove uncovered at high heat to bring to a boil. Stir occasionally so the peas don’t stick.

3. In the meantime dice up all your veggies. after about 1 1/2- 2 hours toss in the diced vegetables and bring to a boil again.You may need to add more water so it doesn’t stick and burn. let it cook for another 40 minutes or so.

Now for your Dumplings:

1 3/4 cups flour
1 tbsp baking powder
3 tbsp butter or margarine
1/2 tsp salt
1/4 tsp pepper
3/4 cups milk

Directions

1. Whisk together in a bowl the flour, baking powder, salt and pepper.

2. Add the butter and whisk again until the mixture resembles course crumbs.

3. Next pour in the milk and switch to a rubber spatula to mix it all together and a soft dough forms.

4. Pinch off small chunks of the dough and drop them into the boiling pea soup. Cover the pot and remove it from the heat and let the dumplings cook for 20 minutes.

5. Remove the cooked dumplings and add pepper to taste then serve.

Thank you,
Adam

 

 

One Book to Change the Game

All I have to do is come up with the magic words that will get thousands of people taking a chance on me and purchasing this little ebook cookbook. Then I can reshoot and add to it making an even better cookbook and turn that one into a bestseller. After that comes the cooking show and the learning new techniques from some of the great chefs of the world. Don’t forget the line of super awesome cooking gear that I can promote and going back to school for some sort of degree, maybe in marketing? Here come the words in 3..2..1. Nope I don’t have them, all I can do is put myself out there. If only I were more social, maybe there would be a chance. Why can’t I stop thinking about it? Just one shot, that’s all I need. Why did I have to love cooking and filming so damn much. Should of never started that Youtube Channel, it made me want to do more with cooking. I just want my cooking to mean something. Anyway all I can do is hope for a miracle and keep working hard the right people will come along, some already have and I am enterally grateful. Then I will make miracles happen for others.

Click Here to get a copy through PayPal I’m selling it though Payhip because I did my research and they seemed fair for the independent selling.

My YouTube Channel is www.youtube.com/adamdurnford

#ChangeMyStory

Would I be deluded  in thinking that maybe one day one thing I do will change my story for the better? It’s one of the few things that keeps me going so I hope not.

my social game hasn’t been strong. One on one is fine, small groups give me some horrible anxiety and causes exhaustion. This is probably the one thing that has held me back over the years because most people don’t really get that. You know what is the weirdest part? If you put me in front of a huge audience or in front of a camera, that’s what I live for. It’s one of those feelings that can be substituted for anything else and that’s why I keep trying to get somewhere with cooking channel, hoping that one day someone or some people may see something there, I truly don’t know what other route to take. Suggestions are welcome.

There needs to be some sense of purpose for my cooking, so I’m hoping to one day set up programs in cooking and the arts to help people who have been bullied or just feel left out in life. I know there are lots of people who don’t feel like they fit in anywhere and I want to do my best to help them. Cooking has been a great therapy for me over the years, I’m just always looking for a way to share that with others.

So basically, I want to take my cooking as far as it can go. Create an opportunity to better take care of my family. They are a huge motivator because I haven’t been able to take care of them like the deseve but I hope to change that. I want to help others never feel left out or bullied. Meet some awesome people along the was and always learn.

Pelase share my story with others, I’d like to know of anyone who struggles to do whatever it is they want to do to change their story. Maybe we can work together to get each other where they need to be. Feel free to leave a comment below.

Check out my cooking canned and please subscribe:

www.youtube.com/adamdurnford

Feel free to grab a digital copy of my cookbook “The Beta Cookbook” and don’t forget you will receive a final digital copy of the book when it’s done. It’s $5 though PayPal. The money goes back into making the most awesome interactive cookbook ever.

http://payhip.com/b/GSJx

Thanks for reading,

Adam

 

 

I’m Literally Just Trying Sell My Digital Cookbook

I was going to get a little deeper with this post, talking about bullying and such but you know what? That stuff is in the past. I’m all about moving forward and trying to convince you all to purchase a copy of “The Beta Cookbook” so I can make the most ultimate awesomest interactive cookbook ever.

You see cooking has sort of been my escape from just about everything negative in the world. When I pick up that knife and start creating meals it takes me to some place of true zen and it doesn’t matter that I’m a horribly socially awkward introvert because the food usually speaks for me. Think of it the same ways as a musician who picks up an instrument and plays.

Now the reason I want to get my book published is so I can do more with food than my current job will allow. I would also like to meet, learn from and become friends with all sorts of like minded food people along the way. Let’s not forget I’m always looking for more ways to provide a better life for my family and there is nothing wrong with that. It’s all about growing as a chef and a person. There are lots of exciting and new things I would like to learn so help give me that chance by purchasing my digital collection of recipes. Click on the link below, you will also receive a digital copy of the final cookbook as well once it is complete. You can also help by sharing this and helping me convince the rest of the world to take a chance on this little old nobody from Newfoundland.

http://payhip.com/b/GSJx

I’m not trying to become a top chef or anything like that, it’s just trying to provide for my family while doing what I love to do and hopefully meet some awesome people that share the same passion along the way. Thank you for your support, you are helping turn my life around and making a dream come true. I will truly pay it forward.

don’t forget to also subscribe to my cooking channel: www.youtube.com/adamdurnford

Take Care,

Adam

 

A Letter From A New Dad

Dear Son,

The months leading up to becoming your father people kept telling me my life is about to change and I brushed this of thinking no, it’s going to be the same life but just with a child in it. I couldn’t have been more wrong but not in the way I thought they meant when they said “change”. The way it was interpreted in my head included all the chaos, diapers and crying, that was going to be the change. It wasn’t that at all in fact.

How do I put this into words, the day that you were born was one of the most amazing days of my life of course it never went the way we expected it, let me rephrase that, it went exactly how we would expect it to go for us but the second I heard that cry  time just stopped and I knew from that moment that Love is not a strong enough word to describe how I feel for you. When you get to hold your child for the first time it’s like nothing else even matters. You are my son and I’m going to do everything I can to protect you and give you the life you deserve, that is all that went through my head.

Leaving to go to work offshore after only two weeks of meeting the little light in my heart just may be the hardest thing I could have ever done. I have felt this anxiety for the last few days and it’s not going to get any easier as the years go by but hopefully you will one day know that I am only doing this because it has to be done and one day I will get to where I want to be with my career as a chef that there will be more time spent with you. That is what I strive for. I still can’t believe that you are our child, a true testament to how much love your Mother an I have for one another.  Greyson, you are my strength that I have needed. I still don’t think there are words that can describe it but I love you.

Always,

Your Dad